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I think this might help someone so I’m posting it. Wellcast is a wonderful channel and it has helped me feel better about myself. I have noticed more sadness in both my friends and some people in the Markiplite/Markiplier’s heroes community. 

For Those Considering Suicide

I have felt this from time to time sometimes I wish I could go into a coma and never wake up. I realize though that I have friends both in real life and on the net that they would miss me if I wasn’t around anymore. Mostly I don’t want to die rather I just want to sleep til everything gets better and wake up. I know that comas don’t work like that…. I hide a lot of things from my followers. Which I’m going to be revealing some things in a sort of autobiography. I hope that you guys might read. To also show, that life might get you down, but standing up is the best thing you can do.

(I have insomnia due to past events and the emotional pain that comes with them I would heal myself with tylenol PM. I know that that is very unhealthy and bad. I’m trying to find ways to cope, without substances. So I still have my faults…Revealing this hurts, I don’t want my friends/family to be disappointed in me. U.U I’m sorry. Now I only take the pain meds when I’m actually in pain and I draw my feelings out. I’ve done this in the past and it still helps.)

I no longer have these thoughts and when I do I can bring myself out of them, thinking about my friends and family I might hurt.

I also have a family member who struggles with suicidal tendencies. So when I say I understand. I really understand. I have had those thoughts, I have a sister who has those thoughts. I have lost friends because of those thoughts. I have saved one friend from those thoughts. If I can stop someone from leaving, I’d have the world. 

I promise no matter how bad life pushes me down I promise I’ll always get right back up. I can be stubborn lol. 

Even though I don’t know any of you on a personal level I would miss you. 


I’m thinking for some of you this might help. They have a ton of videos to help you work through whatever you might be feeling. 

Here’s more that I think might help you that helped me:

Automatic Thoughts  (I know that the example is school but automatic thoughts happen with everything. The more emotional side they kind of go into. I’ll say that when I have automatic thoughts its around: I don’t know anything a person my age should know, I’m so stupid, These thoughts aren’t true. I’m a noob. Nothing is wrong with that. With knowledge I’ll be less of a noob lol)

How To Help Someone With Suicidal Thoughts


Dealing with REJECTION

Stress Management Strategies: Way To Unwind

Self Esteem

I hope these videos will help you how they’ve helped me.

Remember there’s people, including myself that will miss you if you leave. I also think this little song might help: I JUST THINK ITS CUTE and its also helpful.













watch the fat guy version of this video—where it’s a skinny guy turned fat and the girls meet up with him. it goes SO DIFFERENT. they actually talk about things other than his weight, and he even gets kissed.

oh, society.

go and look at the opposite video on youtube then look at the comments. Even though the women are clearly nicer and less judging than the men they still try to justify the men’s reactions and put down the women. It’s kind of disgusting actually. It’s one of those things that makes you sad that you live in this society. 

"it makes me so sad to lie in a society where you can’t get sex or a free male out of a man you’ve lied to on the internet" 

The experiment is actually a sham.

The ‘fat guy’ is an admitted dating expert.  As in, he has a goddamn youtube channel.  He knows how to date, he knows how to engage somebody and he knows immediately how to keep somebody sticking around.  The woman?  Not so much.

Look at the two videos.  The woman literally talks about herself, doesn’t even attempt to engage the guy and doesn’t try to make him interested in her as a person.  Like, when the girls call the guy out on being fat, guess what?  He says “Yeah, it is an old photo, about 3 or 3 years”, she says “Oh, maybe 6 months” and CONSTANTLY tries to underplay it like she’s being cute.

The guy at least owned the fact that he was fat.  The girl sat there was did pretty much everything to deflect.  The guy did his best to put his dates at ease, when at the start you could see they were shocked and a bit put off.  The girl didn’t, she deflected, made excuses, put the blame on the guy, and guess what?  That doesn’t make somebody want to sit down and continue the date.  It only makes them more agitated.

If anything, this highlights exactly what the problem is with hetero dating.  uys are expected to be everything they can, to take the reigns, to lead the date by being engaging and funny.  The girl doesn’t and is expected to sit there and be cute.  Guess what?  When all you’re expected to do is sit there and be entertained by your date, your date isn’t going to be fucking happy when you show up not looking like your profile.

Maybe if the girl actually, I dunno, acknowledged she was fat, didn’t try to shift blame, didn’t try to be ‘cute’ and tried to actually engage the guy, it might’ve worked.

And here’s the thing.  Not only is this experiment massively biased, the fucking odds aren’t that bad either.  Four men and four women.  4/4 women stayed, 1/4 men stayed.  Guess what?  With that margin of error you could’ve just had 4 nice women and 3 asshole guys.  Hell, for all we know, they specifically selected women who listed “okay with fat guys” on their Tindr and picked men who listed “no fat women” on theirs.

As somebody who is actually taking courses on research, this is a goddamn travesty of a ‘social experiment’.


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Ah good, now i’ll reblog it.


Reblogged for the rant up there.


This is Wembley Stadium in London.

On my way to buying a Markiplier T shirt online, I had to ask my mother. After explaining that I MUST have this t shirt as I love this YouTuber, she asked me what one was. I was explaining the concept of youtuber gamers, fan bases and conventions when my step father walks in. My mother, who was very interested and excited by the idea, tells my step father about it, in particular, the conventions. 

Now this is where Tumblr comes in. He is the CEO of the company in charge of architecture in wembley. He was thinking that a possible youtuber gamer convention, yougamer or gametube if you will, can possible grace the stadium or the hotel next door! However, he needs to prove that people will come to this thing and if it is worth it in order to do this…

I need everyone who, if this happened, would be interested in coming to reblog and/or like to spread the word! Also messaging me why this is a good idea would also be great!

If this does become a thing then I will release a survey to see who you want to see at the convention!

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